It's already 18 days into the first month of 2019. For the first time in the last couple of weeks, I can genuinely say I feel relieved and actually not stressed or worried anymore.
A lot of people began the year with new year resolutions, new plans and all you can think of. For me, it started with struggles and frustration. Just when I thought I had it sorted, BOOM! it came crashing down. This time around, I could not take any more of the stress, disappointments and all the extras that came along with it all. They say when it rains it pours, mine felt like an unending storm.
I had been unable to cry all through those weeks. I was laughing too much and talking less. I was also irritated and just wanted to be left alone (I still want to be left alone). It took me opening up to a family member to breakdown, Cry my eyes and heart out. After the conversation, I screamed my lungs out until I felt better (It really does help to let out all that anger and steam).
The most important thing I have learned from all of this is that when I go through crazy times and feel I am drowning, I must not be too quick in making any decision.
A very loving friend always tells me to stop rushing into things or making decisions when I am in panic mode, but rather to slow down, take in everything and view the situation from the outside. Take time to process it all, only then can I begin to make a decision, he is right.
I became so overwhelmed that I snapped at every little thing. Right now, I have decided I need some time off to re-assess, heal and plan. So, this is me creating the time to take care of me the right way.
January has not been great thus far for me, but I am believing that it won't end worse than it began and I am hoping and praying for anyone out there going through their own rough times, crazy challenges ( I know sometimes there might be no one there to lean on), that you find a way to overcome whatever it is you are passing through.
I pray we all come out better and stronger, but we can only achieve this by working towards a better tomorrow and keep believing in ourselves.
We can do this. Remember, winners never quit.
Do not give up, I know I won't.
Stay strong, keep pushing and don't allow your Sparkle wear off.
Sisi Alero loves you. 🌟✨